Friday, June 26, 2009

Final day at work

Final day of treating people, anyway.
It's not going to be my final day at work, however.. The workplace still has hooks in me - I still have ownership and therefore responsibility for the business itself. It's ironic that the part of the work I enjoy most is going to be the part I have to let go of first. Oh well. Such is life.

Tomorrow will be the first day of my new life.

I am wondering how that will feel.

My new life is going to cohere around deconstructing "precept"-ual fantasy wherever I find it. When I look back, I can see I've been headed in this direction for a very very long time already. One day, tomorrow perhaps, I'll wake up and see that it has become so.

4 comments:

Kent said...

It's a very big transition. I pray the best for you. Two years after my "retirement" I am still working on understanding what changed.

Kent said...

I've never been able to establish an RSS feed to Google Reader from your blog. Is that intentional on your part?

Diane Jacobs said...

I think conscious human life is about ongoingly giving oneself conscious permission to detach. This happens biologically anyway... it makes sense to me that as one learns to live, one also learns to dance with this reality, and not "cling" needfully to any.. thing.

Detachment begins biologically in a fertilized egg, as it divides and outgrows its "zona pellucida" covering.. then it makes things out of epiblast - various amniotic layers and placenta that must be left behind. Next is the womb itself, then the "mother", then various self-constructs, jobs, roles, as one matures. Eventually actual people must be detached from (gently, tenderly), as they die. Finally, life itself, one's own, must be detached from as one feels oneself dying. This is the sequence of life - constant moving through stages, one after the other, until there are no more stages, biologically, psychologically, and socially.

Incidentally, the reason I'm atheist is because I consider religion to be a "mental placenta" of attachment that can interfere with or smother, rather than assuage, this natural process of learning to successfully detach, and with one's coming to terms with it. So, while I can't say that I "pray" for you, Kent, I hope you know I wish all the best for you, too.

Diane said...

About the RSS feed, I don't think it intentional as much as it is due to my own ineptitude. I will try to hook it up.